newer than tonight

pretty much on top of the world. emerging from lingering sickness, imitating song lyrics, maintaining a solid front. no need for fear. exploring new ways of getting by and killing time. pretending to be at ease makes it real.

karen and kittie aren't exclusive. there are reasons for the dark of night and the clarity of morning, kids. transitional plans and recovered realizations. we're all young and unafraid.

enamored with my makeshift family, disinterested in the requirements of history. there are multiple story lines here.

not too sure, not too concerned. i used to feel tangled and alarmed, but now there's just freedom. freedom and motion and escape and drugstore remedies. countless options, meandering jokes and made-up words. cleverness and laziness, vision and lucidity. the fog of fun can be summoned at will and remembered forever.

loud music from past eras, laughing at a tabletop shrine to destruction. gliding through the rain to progressively trashier places, slamming into strangers and talking to the clouds. dirty stages strewn with either underwear or instrument cables, beautiful bathrooms with endless phrases and chemicals and happy glances. the offerings of the city's underbelly thrust under my nose, into my heart. dress like a king and race like a petty. we all know what we're doing holds no water but we're happy to roll around in the filth for a few more hours.

i just want this song to last forever.