suck an egg

so i just had a committee meeting today. that sucked. the earliest i can defend (due to scheduling with the committee) is Nov 6, which means i won't get to go to berlin until december or something which is bullshit.

it also rocked that even though this is the first time my adviser has seen me in the past two months he still felt free to drag me over the coals for not giving him a copy of my thesis outline before the meeting. where the fuck was he before the meeting? hell if i know, he sure as hell wasn't anywhere where i could see him. the whole time i just wanted to punch him in the face but i'm on the rag and got all upset instead and started CRYING for the love of god and he then he was trying to make me feel better but the only thing that would have made me feel better was if i had punched him in the face and i couldn't do that.

grad school's like wading through bullshit and i feel like i'm in the middle of a bunch of bulls and someone keeps adding more.